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Hello. Before I begin (and to qualify how fucked-up my grammar will be), I will state that I am exhausted, sort of fed up, and feeling disoriented. But I must also say it feels good to be back here... unreeling a bit and doing some "active resting" in the Deadjournal as opposed to my usual melting on my bed.
RA duty and editing dominate my life right now, so I haven't been fabulously social discluding my hangouts with Kiki, Lauren, and my new friend Jessica. But worse, I really don't feel centered at all. By that I mean I'm strung along between two jobs that both want to be my top priority... but unfortunately I don't want either to be my top priority. Editing is still not an instinct to me -- as I sit and edit pieces, I feel like I'm missing the big picture and forgetting to ask the necessary questions. Dealing with new writers, meetings, interview scheduling, and all-around representing the DI have simply become chores... which isn't to say there isn't benefit to doing all these things, but damn. It's so hard to want to embrace the great aspects of a complex, time-consuming job if you're simply not fully committed to the job. The bottom line: I need to reprioritize or figure out how to wrangle my priorities into something a little more manageable. But will I have the guts to ask for more time away from the paper? How could I? Garddammit. Help, help, help. I hope I'm surviving.
I did get to stop at Coral Ridge mall today with Lauren and Jessica. I planned on dropping some deadly dinero on jeans, a winter coat, and perhaps aerodynamically-badass footwear courtesy of the Puma corporation, but all I got were a cheap Buckle coat, Old Navy flip flops, and fingernail clippers. Truly a day of luxury. Jessica scored big, and Lauren did a good job pretending she was a spendthrift. Wait until October, beeyotch.
Guess I just wanted to pop in to bitch for a moment. I have a whole laundry list of shit to do in the next couple days. Namely:
-RA prep work (floor plan, program plan, etc.)
-DI- interviews with newbies, edit new articles
-Shakespeare class- Finish R&J
-Arts & Reporting- read papers, write reviews
-Media and Health- read (err, re-read, I mean...) articles, study for Thursday quiz
-RA class- short response essay
-laugh, dammit
Anyway, I'm doing my best to keep things funny around here, even if all my writing in this journal seems to be code for "suicide, I'm committing it." Love me. I'll be back sometime, hos.
Xoxo,
Louis
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