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I understand it would be beneficial to etch more time in for the DJ tonight, but Project Runway is on at 9, and I gots to be at Lauren's, so I'ma have to make do with the time I have. It's a little thing called priority. Anyway, hello thurr. I'd like to say I spent the last week lounging around in pajamas and a Burger King crown, but unfortunately that isn't the case. Chipain's was a fucking bear this week; my first day off in over six days happens tomorrow. Thankfully I'm making thousands of dollars at the not-at-all-minimum-wage job I have. Oh well, at least it's something to compensate for the sum I'll be dropping on textbooks. Um, okay, textbook industry, I know it does not cost 120 dollars for a chem book. Stop making shit up, and start writing books I actually read. How you will get Margaret Cho to write a textbook, I don't know.
The days of winter break are dwindling... I guess it's about time to go back, but then again, I don't really know. Earlier this week my mom and I were talking about how ridiculous it was in August when I had to be back at school a week early for basically no reason, and she mentioned how I had to sit around and be lonely. Then my dad commented, "What? You? Mr. Social, lonely?" And then I kind of smirked back at him and said, "That's not too unusual... I don't even really know if I want to go back." And my mom goes, "Wait, you're joking, right?" Nooooope. I cried right there... and the thing is, it's not like I hate or even really dislike school. I'm just indifferent. School is a place where I do a lot of hanging out and get really worried about where my future is headed. So that part sucks. After I went to my room and sobbed to myself about not knowing what the hell I want, Mom and I settled down and played Scrabble... and let me say, I'm getting pretty good at Scrabble. I haven't won many times yet, but I've won enough that I want to play games on end for hours. I played my first 7-letter word last game, so that better go in the photo album.
I'm taking my day off work tomorrow to visit LHS. Joan Hamburger and I will chill and talk for awhile... which should be okay, but I don't even have anything to say. She said she was going to make cookies for me, so rock that. I wanted to see Mark in a drama rehearsal too, but I guess they're rehearsing early in the day instead. I can catch Mark acting like a schizophrenic any other day of the week, so I'm not too upset about missing the chance. Slightly worried/curious about running into Joe... but of course nothing will happen minus the obligatory hello. Though this probably stems from compulsion rather than something more sane, I hate stupid grudges, especially this one. Fortunately, there will be many other people around at LHS that I don't have an unhealthy sexual history with, so that will most likely be refreshing. Or will it? Every time I step into LHS, I feel like I'm a part of a whole 'notha generation removed from the current crop of kids. That's not really a bad thing, but for the time being as I'm in that building, I feel... old. But not old enough to feel like retirement money is on the way; no, just old... not to mention just a smidgen embarrassed to be traipsing through LHS as a 19-year-old. Pretty soon it'll be me and Ryan Porter attending drama rehearsals and wearing leather jackets together. See, it's ideas like this that make me want to go back to school.
Alright, I gotta go for now... I'm not super in the mood to write, and I am soooo tired. Might catch a nap before Project Runway tonight. And by the way, if I haven't said it before in this DJ, I am obsessed with this show. There is nothing (save Jeopardy) that I love more than Proj Run. As a matter of fact, I need to start making predictions about the winners. Zulema, Emmet, and Marla need to hit the road soon... and as for the final three at the end of the show, I'm willing to guess it's going to be between Nick, Santino, and Daniel V. My pick for the winner is the silly, conscientious lovely that I call Nick... becuase he designs the most consistently well out of everyone on the show, and his style is usually very accessible while still novel. Luckily this is the most relevant thing you can think of.
Talk to you guys soon, especially when Iowa and classes hit me hard once again. I may need the catharsis desperately then. Later, lovelies.
Xoxo,
Louis
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