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Hey kids. I have been gone for quite some time. I really don't know where I've been. Probably playing an old-school Jeopardy game on my computer or studying (meaning procrastinating, sleeping or hanging out with the peeps) for Finals. Either way, it's that hell-tastic time of year where the Christmas season and finals combine to form a very listless atmosphere where I feel tired all the time and demotivated and un-energetic and am always in an un-celebratory mood. Maybe when winter break hits (in 16 hours and counting), some of that mounting indifference in me towards things will go away. Maybe I'll just be as blah as ever. I don't even know which way the odds are leaning on that one.
The weather's been pretty damn bitter lately, and I notice that as I get older, I tend to more consciously recognize the emotional context of my environment, my state of being that I project onto the things around me. Like it'll be overcast and gray outside and I'll be thinking "Well fuck, this whole place seems exhausted and spent." Then I realize, "Oh wait. That's how I feel, isn't it." So about that. Anyway, when that gray sky starts to look like a glorious, film-noir, cool but calm setting for winter, maybe that's when I'll feel better about everything. Perspective is everything. Make of that last paragraph what you will, I just was on a roll for a second there.
I've taken six of my finals thus far, and all of them have gone...okay. Well that's not true, actually. Anyway, they're gone and as far as I'm concerned, that means they don't deserve my attention anymore. I only have to take one more final, and that's journalism (gasp, fixing quotations!). No government final since my group won the big review game during last class. I was racking up the points with my Brady Bunch knowledge, you shoulda been there. I got a government question or two correct as well, but who gives a fuck about those. Our group was on as a whole, actually. We deserved to win. Just like at life. Dammit.
At this point in time, I'd like to predict my report card grades. French and Stats are definitely "B" territory...I'm hoping the rest of the card is sporting "A"s. I'd be surprised if I got a B in anything else, I'm pretty sure. English maybe. Shit, what a crime against humanity that would be.
Today after the third final let out, I went with the big group of drama-ers (or as I like to call them: the KoolKids) to Subway. That was me, Elyse, Eric, Kaylin, Erin, Mike, and Sarah. After that, me and Elyse hit up B&N where Andy worked, and Erin re-joined us there. Erin and I browsed the different editions of the Kama Sutra for at least 20 minutes. Dropped by Best Buy as well with both Elyse and Erin before heading home.
I think I'm in generally better spirits nowadays too. I'm less madness and more Madonna nowadays. Believe me when I tell you that's a good thing. College applications seem like less of a chore nowadays. All I need to do is apply to Knox and Columbia and maybe Oberlin, and I'm all set. I don't owe them stress, though. Maybe the time of day, but not stress.
Winter break should be a lot of fun, I'm ready to go, people. Onward. Ho ho...ho.
Louis.
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